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Lyrics

most songs written by me (chris), but some are/will be by johnny.

"you can't know"

lack of affection
don't want you attention
leave me alone

its too late
for your fuckin complaint
its not my fault

drive me around
drive me away
its too late
its too late

blamed on me
its so easy
for you to feel fine

a man i didn't meet
means more than you to me
you did something wrong

drive me around
drive me away
its too late
its too late

push me away
am i ok?
just leave me alone

always critize
and you wonder why
i don't talk to you

drive me around
drive me away
you can't know
its too late
its too late
its too late
its too late
its too late



"Sam Merriweather"

push me off and watch me fall
i know i care, but fuck it all
burning holes in the sun
i'm so bored and i'm having fun
my heart goes out to depressing flowers
water in the garden, bitter sweet and sour

i need to have a violent fit
i'm so sick of the misreble shit

i hope i'm a corpse before the night is through
i wanna die dreaming of you
i hope i'm a corpse when the knife runs through
i need the guts for attempt number two

trying to drown watered thoughts
i don't what it is that i lost
it leaves me tortured and burned
i'm so cunfused, i'm sure
why must i have a reaccuring thought
finding a way to make then stop

i need to have a violent fit
i'm so sick of the misreble shit

i hope i'm a corpse before the night is through
i wanna die dreaming of you
i hope i'm a corpse when the knife runs through
i need the guts for attempt number two

can i be the victim in a suicidal rage
i hope it does, you drive me insane
sinking teeth, kitching hold
struggling, now time to let go
i can't think for the life of me
maybe that'll be the end, finally

i need to have a violent fit
i'm so sick of the misreble shit

i hope i'm a corpse before the night is through
i wanna die dreaming of you
i hope i'm a corpse when the knife runs through
i need the guts for attempt number two
i hope i'm a corpse before the night is through
i wanna die dreaming of you
i hope i'm a corpse before the night is through
i need the guts for attempt number two



"skinless"

stripping away my skin
trying to see within
carving at my bone
where i'm trapped and alone
wanting to see whats to find
owning a piece of whats mine
with me

i don't like the mirror i see
i wouldn't like to meet me
i need thicker skin
falling from within
thick skin, skinless

stripping away at my flesh
it is for the best
carving at and away
releasing HEY!!!!
wanting too sea, space
throwing it in my face
with me

i don't like the mirror i see
i wouldn't like to meet me
i need thicker skin
falling from within
thick skin, skinless

stripping away skins on my soul
trying to fill my empty hole
carving at whats lost and gone
i'm the one whose always wrong
wanting to bring security
a gift from you to me
with me

i don't like the mirror i see
i wouldn't like to meet me
i need thicker skin
falling from within
thick skin, skinless



"material existance"

taking up space with my hand
i wish i could read my mind
taking up space with my hand
everyone's in front 'cause i'm behind
trying to talk to the walls i built
in a room painted disillusion
trying to talk through the walls i built
in a room of sick confusion

its not fun anymore to just sit
i might be telling the truth a little bit
you can have all i own
i wish i had a home
it seems like people and stupid
usually go together

you know what i mean
i don't want to be seen
you know what i mean
i'll try not to be mean
you know what i meant
i'll sell you my cent
you know what i meant
i'll tell you where i went

its not fun anymore to just sit
i might be telling the truth a little bit
you can have all i own
i wish i had a home
it seems like people and stupid
usually go together

far away in my mind
i see a place i've left behind
its so close i can smell the air
its so close i'm so far from there
a scene in a life flashes by
a life i didn't touch
a memory left to die
as it goes it fades away
passed me by on this day

its not fun anymore to just sit
i might be telling the truth a little bit
you can have all i own
i wish i had a home
it seems like people and stupid
usually go together



"i hate me"

i hate missing my mother
i hate needing another
i hate all the hate in me

i hate being on my own
i hate being all alone
i hate all the hate in me

i hate monday morning
i hate being boring
i hate all the hate in me

i hate these thoughts i'm thinking
i hate how far i'm sinking
i hate all the hate in me

i hate how far i'm gone
i hate having to go on
i hate all the hate in me

i hate thinking of you
i hate having a few
i hate all the hate in me

i hate the disease you are
i hate hiding the scare
i hate all the hate in me

i hate letting it out
i hate living in doubt
i hate all the hate in me

i hate living helpless
i hate feeling like a mess
i hate all the hate in me

i hate what you did
i hate that i hid
i hate all the hate in me

i hate being by myself
i hate being sold off the shelf
i hate all the hate in me

i hate having to be hopeless
i hate being selfish
i hate all the hate in me

i hate what you made of me
i hate that you don't see
i hate all the hate in me

i hate that i lied to you
i hate that i continue
i hate all the hate in me

i hate having to hear my voice
i hate having to make a choice
i hate all the hate in me

i hate this deathless guilt
i hate flowers' wilt
i hate all the hate in me
i hate all the hate i see



"no one and me"

i don't want to face today
there's nothing left to be
i'm so ashamed
no one wants me

there's no getting out of here
i won't go over there
and i won't stay right here

i don't want a face today
there's no one left to be
i'm so ashamed
no one needs me

there's no getting out of here
i won't go over there
and i won't stay right here

i don't want to be there today
there's nothing that should be
i'm so ashamed
no one desires me

there's no getting out of here
i won't go over there
and i won't stay right here

i don't want to live out today
there's no one that should be
i'm so ashamed
no one and me

there's no getting out of here
i won't go over there
and i won't stay right here